I always knew I wanted to write you a letter on your birthday. But now I’m having a hard time figuring out the right words to say. How can one adequately express their joy on the happiest day of their life?
I guess I’ll start by saying that you were (and are) extremely wanted. I prayed and prayed for you to come into our lives for many months. I cried a lot thinking I might never have you. It’s all my heart wanted. One morning, I got up early, feeling really excited for some reason. A few minutes later, I found out you were on your way to us. I’ve never been happier in my life.
Now you’re here and I’m a mess of emotions: happy, excited, scared, elated, overwhelmed. But most of all? I’m in love. Complete and utter pure love. They said this would happen. Everyone in the world said this would happen. They all said I would never know love until I held my child for the first time. Boy, they were right.
I will post a complete birth story later, but let’s just say your arrival into the world was a loooong and arduous one. I was in labor for 48 hours before the doctor told me my uterus was just not contracting how it should be, which meant it wasn’t pushing you out. Also two days of pitocin was really taking it’s toll on my body. So, out you came!
Right before the c-section began, as I was strapped down to an operation table, your dad was comforting me. I couldn’t stop shaking and crying. He told me that he’d waited his whole life for this day. Those words really helped me focus because guess what? So had I. We both cried harder than you were the moment we heard you.
And then I got to hold you. My life changed forever at that moment.
Henry, some things you have to look forward to:
- Your dad and I love to laugh and have fun. Life is too short to be so serious. I want to teach you to laugh, play, sing, dance, and not sweat the small stuff. You’ll spill some milk. Big deal. You’ll probably pee your pants a few times. Who hasn’t? If you’re as artistic as your dad, I fully expect to find you creating some marker art on the walls. Don’t worry, sweetie. It all cleans up. No biggie. (Just keep the wall art to a minimum, ok? We’ll have lots of paper around for that).
- Speaking of dancing and singing, we do a lot of that around here too. Your dad is even pretty good at it. Eventually, this will embarrass you. But while you’re still cool with it, we’re going to dance and sing with you every day of your life. Hope you don’t mind.
- We’re fun parents, but we also want to teach you to be polite, respectful of other people, and kind. You might not like the inevitable time outs while you learn what behavior is and isn’t acceptable, but you’ll be better for it in the long run. Life is so much easier when you know how to treat other people. You’ll have lots of friends and social situations will be a breeze. You’ll like it when everyone likes you back, trust me.
- Slow down and enjoy life. Always remember the words your namesake sang: Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.
There’s a lot more to say, and I’ll keep writing you letters. For now, I’m just going to go back to holding you and staring at you.
Welcome to the world, Henry. We love you so much.
Mom & Dad